Its like you talk to me; but you forget I’m a person. You want to hear what you want, but forget I have a whole other mind; with different curiosities and sometimes I like to venture to my thoughts as well 

I think I made this happen, because I kept thinking it would and honestly I kind of secretly hoped it would, I think I needed and excuse or reason to cut this friendship out of my life. Not to sound selfish but more so realistic no one was benefiting from this friendship and I think any valuable relationship should be beneficial to all involved whether its support, growth within, or just helping you be who you want to be pushing you to be better. I haven’t felt any of those things in a long time I felt a lot of negative things but I couldn’t get myself to cut it loose because I felt bad, but you know it’s okay to care about yourself and do what’s best for you seeing as though your the only one there for this whole journey. All I’m trying to say is I think I need to value myself more and stop detaching so much. 

My family was just down stairs talking about my sisters friends who has a girlfriend and if her mom knows or not. My first thought was yeah why not I don’t see why she would care, but come to find out apparently she doesn’t know. Its so odd how I really never gave it much thought because I forget not everyone thinks the way I do and its so odd to think someone might not be okay with it. I never even thought about talking to my parents about be attracted to personalities rather than gender; that is not to say everyone is just attracted to gender without personality; just to say one comes before the other usually. I really still do not feel the need to until a situation comes where they may need to know. Either way I genuinely do not understand how a mind can work so vastly different from my own while having the same general structure.. I just find I get surprised very often. Its so odd how differently everyone can see things. You literally visually see things different. So strange.